Your dreams are more than worth defending.

I'm completly filled up with hate.
Head to toe, finger tips to finget tips.
I hate the people in my school more than before.
I hate the sluts.
I hate the liars.
I hate the attention whores.
I hate the pot heads.
I hate the clicks.
I hate the freshman.
I hate the scene kids.
I dont know how many times I've made a post about this.
But its all the same, just with more edge.
And Ali, today our plan gets set in stone, because my dreams of getting what I wanted wont come true unless our plan goes through.


"You make me want to forget."

So darlin, darlin stand, stand by me

Ahh yes, birthday wishes make my life complete.
Brendan, no one else has ever made me so happy, chester was happy too.


I love my friends.


"Its your birthday so I know you want to riiiiide out."

My third post of the day

I can't sleep so I've decided to make a list of things I want to do before I die, thank you The Buried Life. Its so cliche, but hopefully it will put me to sleep.

1. Get a tattoo
2. Drive cross country
3. Move to Australia
4. Visit Canada
5. Get a black eye
6. Sky Dive
7. Hike all of the Appalachian trail
8. Jump off a bridge
9. Concur my fear of the ocean.
10. Send a secret to post secret
11. Graduate college.
12. Witness a tornado
13. Learn to snowboard
14. Learn to surf
15. Catch a fish

More to be added.

"Pretending everything thing is fine, to make it better."

Headstrong

Why is it so easy to say how much you hate God, but so hard to say he does exist?
Its like when Palenstine, and other surrounding nations declared war on Isreal.
They didn't consider it a real country, yet they wagged war against it.
It isnt possible to wage war on something that doesnt exist.
You can't hate it if its not there.
You hate because you don't understand.
You don't understand because you don't bother to search for answers.

"Complete with walls I did create."

Fear can drive stick.

Days pass.
Everything changes, while everything stays the same.
Secrets bubble to the surface, and steam moves it from ear to ear.
Questions go unanswered.
Harsh words create harsh reactions.
The climax takes place, but all of the actors are already dead.

"Don't fly fast, oh pilot can you help me? Can you make this last?"

So just get it off your chest, and tell me everything.




"I'm not gonna waste these words about a boy."

This is no place to try and live my life

Is it possible to actually feel people drifting away?
Is there a tangible electric shock that drives through the air and strikes a person down?
Is it the pulling on ones heart?
Or the wetness of a tear falling?


Is it possible to feel the hatred towards ones self?
To feel the holes burning though your body from their awful stares?
To feel like knife slowly and painfully stab your back for every twisted, hate-filled word they allow to fall from their lips?


"And you promised me that in time I will defeat this."

I keep my secrets safe

I keep them hidden away from you.

I'm not in love, this is not my heart.

It's been awhile. I've been so busy lately. Work, school, homework, friends.
I'm actually home for once without having to wake up early in the morning.
It's kind of nice.
I went to the movies tonight, saw Youth in Revolt. Such a good movie.
We then went to Ali's for a little, my second home <3
I'm changing, again.
I can feel it.
I can hear it.
I can see it.
This time, I don't mind.
Though this change leaves me wanting more every now and then.
You're within my reach. I can feel it.


"Second chances? They don't matter, people never change."

So heres your standing o

This song has played at least 30 times since ive been home,
and yet I keep playing it.
Brendan you get the best songs stuck in my head
I hope mommy says i can go tonight :]]]
Its so cold in my room.
New year, new start.
Lets hope i dont fuck this year off.
Though i did start it off right last night with good people.
Ali, Brendan and Ali's family, oh God that was so much fun.
:]





"So cheers, toast, bravo to you. Cause you're the man of the hour, I'll have to send you some flowers"