Horrible things that I have done, seems this disease is slowly spreading

So, its another one of those nights, when nothing goes the way you want.
One of those nights that make you feel hopeless.
One of those nights that make you want to cut every tie with the outside world.
One of those nights that you want to pour your heart out to somebody, anybody, but everyone is already too busy.
Oh and by busy, I mean they're not really busy, they just don't give a fuck.
Everybody hates you.
Your friends, HA, friends? they're done with you.
You know why? Because you absolutely suck.
You're the shittiest person they've ever met, and they let you know it.
You feel trapped.
You want to cry, but you dont know if you have anything left inside to give.
Pretend everything is alright, keep in one certain area of light, so no one can see the dents in your armor.
Maybe its the eyeliner getting in my eyes, or maybe its something real.
Feelings get you nowhere.





Oh, and by you, I mean me.






"Sold my soul to stop the pain, hoping you'd set me free."