Starstruck, prepair to get starstuck

I could live the rest of my life with just you eight friends.
I don't need anyone else in my life.
Thank God for that.
Everyone else was getting way too annoying.

Hard

Today was one of the hardest I've ever gone through.
Friends, close friends, pouring their hearts out, bawling their eyes out until they were dry.
Listening to the best friend speak, crying as the words flowed from his lips.
I've never cried so hard in my life.
Hey Ike, how about that time in Sports marketing when someone unplugged your mouse and you got so pissed because your computer wasnt working.
Or when you tried during the review game to be all cool cause you played basketball and shoot from the 3 point range but completely miss.
I may not have been close with you, but I knew you, my best friends were close with you, and seeing how hurt they were hurt me.
I just can't stop crying now.
These next couple of days are going to be nearly unbearable, but I'll fight through them.
I don't want money, or tuesday for that matter to come.
God please watch over the rest of us, keep us safe. We need each other now more than ever.
I don't think I can take take much more of this.

"all that he was, its just a tragedy."

Life can flash before your eyes

What a tragedy.
I may not have known you very well, but I knew how well my other friends loved you.
You could make others laugh, you were an allstar when it came to sports, you were an all around great kid. So sad something like this could happen.
No one even saw it coming.
May angels lead you in Ike.
Resy Easy




"And all that he was, its just a tragedy."

Shell Shocked.

The words hit me, strong and fast.
Stunned, stunned, stunned.
My lips freeze, while my head races.
I don't know what you want from me.
You never make it clear.
When you swear at me, oh, that hurts the most.
"well you might as well go, cause if you don't get what you want you're a little bitch to me."
Well what do you expect from me?
Most people do get upset when they don't receive the outcome they had hoped for.
I'll cry, try to get it out of my system, but it won't be.
I will just get buried underneath everything until we snap again.
Though, I can't say any of this to you. Because if I do, I'm throwing "attitude" into your face.
And you just can't digest that.
I want so badly to stand up for myself, but I can't.
You taught scared me into being a spineless person.

"Goodbye to you, goodbye to you, you're taking up my time."

I gotta get outta here

I want this to happen so much.
And finally my goal is set in stone.
Taking over slowly more and more each day.
More self control, thank God.


"I'm beggin you to be my escape."

Remember, because thats all you can do

Its Tuesday. I'm already exhausted.
Kill me now.


"Scream to be heard. Like you needed anymore attention."