So to be honest

Ive never loved a show as much as I love glee <3333333
nothing gets better then this.









"Everybody, they love a winner, so nobody love me"

Im glad I did it cause you had to learn

fuck it, i dont care if you see this or not, fuck you both. COME TO MY FUCKING FACE AND TELL ME YOU DONT LIKE ME. oh and the whole going to easton with lindsey and ali, suck it the fuck up, get over it. The fact that you had to call TWO FUCKING PEOPLE, who I thought were my friends just to find out where I was is just fucking pathetic, and the fact that she lied for you, shows that she really doesnt like me. WONDERFUL. Oh and you know how you think ive changed, well to be honest, I KNOW IVE CHANGED. and its for the better. Sorry im not as bitchy and pathetic anymore. Sorry I dont like making reckless choices anymore. Sorry I have self confidence.

"Break away from everybody, break away from everything.
If you cant stand the way this place is, take yourself to higher places."

Kill off this thinking, it's starting to sink in I'm losing control now, and without you I can finally see

I believe that the more someone thinks about any action, let it be past, present, or future, more than they should, the more they regret it. Thats why you have to let life run its course. The second you read too far into something you've ruined it completely for yourself. Now im not saying you should do everything on just a sudden burst of thought, some actions need to be thought through a little more then others, but if you read in between the lines too much, you may regret it more then if you would have just gone with it in the first place. The more you look back into the past, the more you regret.

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On another note, today was pretty good, Brendan picked me and Ali up from school, then we went to Alis house then jake came over, then we went to the football game, which we won, then back to Alis, then Brittneys, Now im home. oh by the way, you may be the mvp, but im the play maker, and youre benched.

I dont want tomorrow

p.s I miss the old you

"I'll probably always have these ugly scars, but right now I dont care about that part."

10 Reasons I hate BAHS

1. Color coded bathrooms... what are we, six?
2. No cell phones... awh man come on, i wasnt even finished texting my friend the answers.
3. No water bottles or coffee mugs... come on I just really want some vodka so i can get drunk during class
4. If you come inside the building before 7:15 and about ever 10 feet you walk there is a new teacher there asking you where youre going... oh im on my way to find somewhere to plant this bomb, i mean library.
5. No backpacks, but you may have our cheep bags that have plastic in the front that you can buy for five dollars... wow this doesnt look like its going to fall apart in five days, oh and if i put a binder in the front of it, well who knows whats behind the binder...
6. If you throw a little noodle im going to yell at you... yeah today some little annoying sophomore boys kept flicking pasta bar noodles, dont get me wrong, I enjoy pasta as much as the next person, but not when its getting flicked at me from 20 feet away. I then flipped them off, seeing as they were all laughing, and proceeded to throw a noodle back at them, and of course, i get caught, but none of them do. WONDERFUL BANGOR SECURITY, I CAN SEE THAT THERE ARE NO OTHER BIG CRIMES EXCEPT THE NOODLE THROWERS TO GO AFTER.
7.) No hoods or hats inside the building, sure sure i understand the respect thing, but there is NO reason to pretty much chase a student down the hall for having his hood up, whats he hiding under his hood? a bottle of vodka? come on really, and as for the respect thing, uhm hat day, does the rule of respect suddenly change just because you pay a dollar to put something on your head? Well apparently at Bangor Area High School it does.
8. Quarry Crew is too rowdy... Oh sorry, please tell that to our athletes that love having us cheer, oh and our fan sportsmanship award.
9.) They constantly tell you that the guidance office staff is there for you, yet when you go down to get help, a.) they either dont know how to help you, or, b.) there is no one available to help you
10.) 4 lousy minutes in the hallway... are you kidding me? oh sorry i didnt know you wanted me to sprint from class to class, but wait its not like its even possible to move, seeing as there are about 20 groups of freshman taking up the hallways no matter what hall youre in.

Thank God...

I finally got a goods night sleep last night, first night in three weeks. I woke up and actually was not exhausted. Blahhhhh watching a movie and what not, then cleaning. Its Sarah's birthday today, so cake and fake smiles.



"Oh, oh, oh
How was I supposed to know that you were
Oh, oh, over me?
I think that I should go
(Go!)
And something's telling me to leave, but I won't
'Cause I'm damned if I do ya
Damned if I don't"

She swallowed a fork....?

Yeahhh, discovery health has some sick shit. God im exhausted. Long ass day today. Woke up. Went to the back to set up my checking/savings account. Went to pburg mall with Stofko. Went out and around with Julie. Went to the movies with Julie, Ali and Jake, and now im finally home. Thank God. Im so tired. dsflakjsdfl;j, im excited to sleep :] oh and at the movies it was crazy, there were at least 16 other people from bangor there. I hate everyone. This girl bleeds.... tears? " the girl who cries blood." I kid you not i just heard this shit on the tv, google it.




"Girl if you pull up to my window im gonna take your ordaa, or-ordaa"

all those years, they were here first

This movie is making me sad. I cry pretty much any time someone in a movie is crying, woops. Im hoping to get piercings with jake some time this week. woohoo. I wish you werent moving. I want to leave bangor. I hate most of the people and I just in general hate the school. I wish I could have a new begining. So I guess im just kinda envioius that youb get to leave and I dont. I mean dont get me wrong i have some of the greatest friends anyone could ever ask for its just the rest of the people that live here. UGH. I will never EVER forgive you. I didnt think it was possible to feel this much hatered towards a person ever in my life. How DARE you talk to my mother the way to did. You disgust me. You ruined highschool for me. thanks.







"Something about you is so addictive."

Tick, Tick Boom.

Time has never moved so slow.

I just wanna break you down so badly

I get the most depressed when I read the secrets posted on "post secret"
Its so sad. but in a way it makes me feel better about myself, and then I realize I have a few of my own I could honestly post, i think I might

this one just made me want to cry
" I steal my moms Prozac so that I dont care when she tells me shes disappointed in me."

on a little bit more of the brighter side, im superrr pumped for the football game tomorrow.

p.s I liked you better before.




"We only made out, you never kissed me, thats how I learned to hold back all feeling."

If second chances were possible, I'd be first in line.

So, I hate scene kids, and freshman, without them, school would be fine. Pep rally Thursday , football game Friday. Work is also friday, but luckily I get off just in time to go to the game. Im pumped. I live for football season, and basketball season, but we'll get to that when it gets here. I want time to move faster, that would be nice.



p.s im so sorry.




"Look Over Your Shoulder
Your Conscience Kills Your Constant Thrills
Shallow Makeover.
Hide In Your Eyes
Dancing In The Bright Lights
Take Out The Knife
This Brush Just Doesn't Feel Right
Hide In Your Eyes
Mirrors Tell The Worst Lies"